....after close to five years in the folds of a war gone crazy, with the daily dose of cracking gunfire and violence inc...i have finnaly reached safer shores...peace has its own wierd ways...too much of things i never joined the forces for...i see soldiering fading in the realms of mundane routine... and then i have the older of the olives with their advices on scrapping that lonehood from life and joining the small chaos of commitment, marriage and the sorts...'this is the best place to get married...else ur wasting this tenure...'..
...well with so much happening what scares me..
...will she fit in ... am i gonna change...are things gonna change between us....would i shoulder a broken home for my kids...what if my deepest love might fade as forghed time and again in that matrix revolutions theme..." everything that has a beginning has an end"
...i dont wanna hurry...i wanna be the best there could be....i wanna be there... sigh...but some things are not to be.. my life is not like anything ppl know about...sacrifice is not bout laying down ones life(that would be tooo easy)...its about missing out on life...six years and i've been eluded from the real world...but then how different is the real world...or are greener pastures just a mirage of a shy dream?....
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